Thursday, November 08, 2007

We're studying Abnormal Psychology now, which means we learn the different types of psychological problems prevalent in society today. And you know what I think I might be suffering from obsessive-compulsive disoder (OCD), minus the compulsive part.

People who suffer from OCD have obsessions in recurrent or persistent thoughts which are intrusive and difficult to suppress, and in a bid to stop the obsessions people have compulsive behaviour, or repetitive behaviour. Like everytime you touch something you contaminated and you have to keep washing your hands countless times a day, sometimes until they are raw.

In any normal situation, like sitting down to dinner I imagine someone accidentally cutting my arm when holding their butter knife, or when my friend is lending me a pencil I imagine her accidentally poking it into my eye, or while crossing the road I imagine some car speeding up to me and pinning me under. How easy these things can happen, if you think about it. If not for social rules and appropriate behaviour, such things CAN happen. I picture myself slipping and rolling down the stairs, or tripping over myself when walking up the stage, suffering a concussion after running into a pole during training. It's not like these things are out of the world; it's not like they've never happened before.

And it's not like I intentionally think about them, these thoughts just bombard my mind. I think, maybe the effects of watching Happy Tree Friends have finally surfaced from the unconscious after so many years.

writing at 9:18 AM

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