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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

I've been feeling out of sorts the past 2 days... just not myself.

I've had butterflies in my tummy all day, and I feel light. Weightless sensations, floaty. Surreal. I can't find an adequate word. And I'm pretty sure my cold hands does not owe to the air-conditioning of the lecture halls.

The worst thing is I've lost my appetite. Something which has never happened before. Now the thought of lunch or food doesn't even excite me anymore. I don't feel happy eating. I don't even feel like eating. :( Full because of all the butterflies in my tummy ah.

I am not sure if what is affecting me is what I THINK is affecting me.

Rahhhhh. I wish I had an inkling.

writing at 8:23 PM

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Today is Valentine's Day.

It felt more of a friendship-day kind of day to me though. Probably because of all the small little gifts like self-baked cookies, cards, candles, chocolates (hey notice the alliteration!) and stuff like that I got from my friends. Mostly female though(not that I mind lah, haha). Nevertheless, my secret wish of getting heart-shaped helium balloons was granted! That small gesture was enough to make me smile into space like a retard in the middle of lecture for no apparent reason, when all my friends are furiously copying notes. Thank you! ;) I love floating balloons.

After school Cheryl, Shimin and me went to Swensens at Plaza Singapura (courtesy of Shimin), and were greeted by couples strolling hand in hand on the streets. Greeted is an understatement man. We were bombarded all around by couples, more likely. It seems everywhere we go, every direction we turn, a couple will be ready to pounce on us. I admit it did feel a little odd, us three girls in the middle of Swensens, surrounded by hanging heartshaped balloons and couples staring into each other's eyes, sharing ice-cream, whatever else that couples do on dates.

What's the big deal about Valentine's Day anyways! You don't wait for Vday to show love mah, so why must everyone wait till this day to bring their dates to Swensens and cram up the entire place. Rahhh.

And I am not complaining OK. Just airing my grievances, for lack of a better description. I asked Kep why is he swimming with his brother on valentine's day(I didn't believe it initially though), and he said it's not because he doesn't have a date, but to wait for something better. It made sense to me. And I think I agree.

Found this quote on the net and I think it's quite nice:

"The laws of gravity cannot be held responsible for people falling in love." -Albert Einstein

And I love this quote from the Bible:

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Beautiful.

writing at 10:08 PM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

I screwed up the one single point that mattered most. That one single try that would mean the finals of the Inter CT Touch Rugby competition. We only needed that one ball to win. And I screwed it up. :(:( I just had to put the ball down but I dropped it. DROPPED it at the try-line. Happiness.

You know the worst feeling in the world is the "could have".
We could have won. ):

writing at 10:05 PM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Of all the things to lose, I lost my uniform.

I left it in the toilet for a while, and when I went back to collect it, a single strip of disgusting toilet paper was all that was left where I placed it. I could only look on with outraged disbelief at the fact that any NORMAL person would want to kope a uniform. C'mon man, if I left a gleaming $2 note there I won't be surprised if it was gone, but a uniform?! A (probably) smelly uniform worn for already a year!?

Who in their correct frame of mind will ever want to steal a uniform man!

I refuse to buy a new set. And I will embark on a search tomorrow because I strongly believe that whoever has it will return it, that man (or woman) is not inherently evil.

Rahhh! Of all the losable things to lose!

This sucks. ):

writing at 9:17 PM