Thursday, September 30, 2004
So this whole week I got back most of my major papers already. Well I can't say I did very badly, but neither can I say I'm contend with the results. Like what the teachers always like to say: There's room for improvement.
Some subjects I expected better, some subjects I expected worse. Well I guess that's why people always say, you win some, you lose some. My humanities have never been good, fails (or otherwise borderline passes) most of the time. But this time I actually managed to hit >30 (upon 50)! I have to say its not my efforts alone, but God's credit, that I'm able to achieve this feat. But HCL was a disappoinment, 'cause it was one of my stronger subjects and I expected an A, but got a B instead..
But above all, I believe I got what I deserved to get, because I know God is a just and fair God, and He gives me what I deserve. He knows how much i studied (or didn't study), and I just wanna thank Him for all He has given me - the good and the bad.
Then inevitably with results means the choosing of JC. Right now I'm like facing this cross road, and I don't know which path to take. Both seems equally appealing, and both roads are treadable (i think). And each heads in a completely opposite direction to the other, which means i may end up a different Chun Li if i choose A over B, and vice versa. So, to put things short, I'm stuck.
Y'know sometimes I feel uncertain about what tomorrow holds, but knowing that God has my future in His hands, all my worries disappear. Wherever God chooses to lead me, I'll follow. So I guess whichever JC I may end up in, its where I'm meant to be.
In a way I don't have to worry so much because God will choose what is best for me. So worries aside, I thank God once again for everythin, and especially for sustaining me through the prelims (or I'd have just burned out midway).
I remember exactly one year ago, i was at Chinese Garden. I remember seeing a lot of little kids with lanterns, hand in hand with their grandpas and grandmas. I remember taking a picture of the different lantern cartoon characters. I remember we had fun playing with the sparklers and competing with each other tryin to throw the furthest distance into the lake. I remember we had a tiringly tedious climb up the pagoda, and being rewarded with a breath-taking view of the whole place with the cool wind playing around our faces. I remember you surprising me with a whole boxful of sweets and whatnots, and u telling me each was meant to make up for the past 15 years of missed birthdays. I remember telling you to rest more and drink more water because you were having a cold. And i remember leaving Chinese Garden feeling warmed and happy.
Well, all's history, but i guess they'd probably be kept in the safe haven of my memory, for a long long time to come.
Sat morning i went chs auditorium for some prize presentation thingaling. It was quite cool 'cause it was like a congregation of sports ppl from all different schools, and saw some familiar faces there. But u know what i think its not worth all the mental torture for a piece of namesake that will fade with time. I rather have good memories.
Anyways, after that i went Sunset Bay, and i made new friends! Chris' friends were all into beach volleyin so we all played together! There was this new friend called John, and i contemplated telling him that my dad's name is also John, but i decided against it cus i was thinkin ppl don't go around tellin new friends that they remind them of their father. Aye but i should've just told him that because he laughed at my name! -_- Anyways, beach volleying was fun cus together we formed a formidable team cus we went round challenging ppl and we kept winning! :D ha and i've got back my tann(or chaotah-ness).
I think the main reasons why i played so much these few days is to reward my brain and make it as happy as possible before it faces the full-blown impact of getting back prelim papers this whole week. i really truly seriously dread what is to come.
Anyways, watched Ghost with Shanny yesterday, and it was torturous.I have decided i cannot watch horror movies with Shanny. She's even more timid than my li'l brother!Plus the fact that i was super scared too, i had to squeeze my eyes and ears shut the whole time, and Shanny was clinging on to me and squirmin around, trying to peep and trying to cover her eyes at the same time. I have concluded that horror shows are very tedious to watch.
Actually Ghost is one of the few horror shows with a logical plot. And i caught enough snippets of scenes here and there (i was trying to peep from behind my bag) to put together what was going on.This is my summary of it: Girl dies. Ghost wants revenge. Strange things happen. Ppl scream and die. Ghost disappears.Well if you've watched enough movies, horror films usually follow this plot (save Scary Movie 1 and 2), and sometimes i wonder why i still pay $8.50 for these cheap thrills.I guess its one of the mysteries of human nature. The more i'm scared, the more i wanna watch it (abit similar to cai laoshi's "the more you know the more you donno" logic).
7:45 - i was doing last minute readings and refreshing on the process of digestion.
7:55 - i decided the more i know, the more i donno. (cai laoshi's logic)8:00 - being a little restless, i cleaned the whiteboard and wrote "Biology P1, 8.15-9.15am"
8:03 - i returned to my seat started to prepare my table for the exam
8:04 - i reached into my bag, and realised i FORGOT to bring my pencil case!
8:05 - i spent an entire minute clearing my bag but i still couldn't find it.
8:06 - panick. the only thing that came to mind was: Dear God, help me.
8:06 - i went around the class askin if my friends had extra pens or pencils or erasers or rulers but i realised its a futile attempt. then my michk reminded me i had juniors. i was like, OH YAH!
8:08 - so i ran to the sec 3 classrooms a level right below, and thankfully 3 of my juniors were in the same class, so i just borrowed 2 pencil cases, and ran back to class.
8:10 - i quickly rummaged thru for what i need, and miraculously they had the brand of pen i usually use.
8:15 - exam starts.
You know when i ran down and saw my juniors sitting together in their class i couldn't have been more relieved. I really have to thank God for helping me get all the neccessary stationery in such a short time, and i had different types of pens to choose from too.I thank God that michk reminded me i had juniors, that the sec 3 classes were only a level down, and that 3 of my juniors were in the same class.
One thing i learnt: never underestimate the power of prayers.
But it was an exciting film lah, save the fact that i was perpetually half blind most of the time and squinting because i was so near the screen (2nd row?!) with all the flashing. All because Simon said: "I like sitting at the front rows." (i was like ?!?!) Actually t'was because the front rows were the only seats left. Ended up with neck cramps after the movie though.
But overall i think i needed that movie break.
today was A-Math P1 and Social Studies. After a-math i can literally feel my brain being squeezed dry. A-math can be very mentally-draining at times. Overall i actually felt goooood after the paper! (like how you feel when you've done a good project presentation) There was only 1 relative velocity question i totally donno how to do(my relative velocity cannot make it), but i did draw manage to draw the diagram, which's a very big feat already.
And after SS paper i actually felt gooood too, which is very seldom, or not at all. i felt proud of myself that i actually remembered explicit consideration, and to rank the factors accordingly. and i do love Venice! s'why i chose it for structured.
but you know, most of the time i feel good after doing the exam paper, but when i get back the results... its another thing completely. bahhhh.
So this whole week I got back most of my major papers already. Well I can't say I did very badly, but neither can I say I'm contend with the results. Like what the teachers always like to say: There's room for improvement.
Some subjects I expected better, some subjects I expected worse. Well I guess that's why people always say, you win some, you lose some. My humanities have never been good, fails (or otherwise borderline passes) most of the time. But this time I actually managed to hit >30 (upon 50)! I have to say its not my efforts alone, but God's credit, that I'm able to achieve this feat. But HCL was a disappoinment, 'cause it was one of my stronger subjects and I expected an A, but got a B instead..
But above all, I believe I got what I deserved to get, because I know God is a just and fair God, and He gives me what I deserve. He knows how much i studied (or didn't study), and I just wanna thank Him for all He has given me - the good and the bad.
Then inevitably with results means the choosing of JC. Right now I'm like facing this cross road, and I don't know which path to take. Both seems equally appealing, and both roads are treadable (i think). And each heads in a completely opposite direction to the other, which means i may end up a different Chun Li if i choose A over B, and vice versa. So, to put things short, I'm stuck.
Y'know sometimes I feel uncertain about what tomorrow holds, but knowing that God has my future in His hands, all my worries disappear. Wherever God chooses to lead me, I'll follow. So I guess whichever JC I may end up in, its where I'm meant to be.
In a way I don't have to worry so much because God will choose what is best for me. So worries aside, I thank God once again for everythin, and especially for sustaining me through the prelims (or I'd have just burned out midway).
writing at 8:28 PM
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
I remember exactly one year ago, i was at Chinese Garden. I remember seeing a lot of little kids with lanterns, hand in hand with their grandpas and grandmas. I remember taking a picture of the different lantern cartoon characters. I remember we had fun playing with the sparklers and competing with each other tryin to throw the furthest distance into the lake. I remember we had a tiringly tedious climb up the pagoda, and being rewarded with a breath-taking view of the whole place with the cool wind playing around our faces. I remember you surprising me with a whole boxful of sweets and whatnots, and u telling me each was meant to make up for the past 15 years of missed birthdays. I remember telling you to rest more and drink more water because you were having a cold. And i remember leaving Chinese Garden feeling warmed and happy.
Well, all's history, but i guess they'd probably be kept in the safe haven of my memory, for a long long time to come.
writing at 1:54 PM
Sunday, September 26, 2004
~
Sat morning i went chs auditorium for some prize presentation thingaling. It was quite cool 'cause it was like a congregation of sports ppl from all different schools, and saw some familiar faces there. But u know what i think its not worth all the mental torture for a piece of namesake that will fade with time. I rather have good memories.
Anyways, after that i went Sunset Bay, and i made new friends! Chris' friends were all into beach volleyin so we all played together! There was this new friend called John, and i contemplated telling him that my dad's name is also John, but i decided against it cus i was thinkin ppl don't go around tellin new friends that they remind them of their father. Aye but i should've just told him that because he laughed at my name! -_- Anyways, beach volleying was fun cus together we formed a formidable team cus we went round challenging ppl and we kept winning! :D ha and i've got back my tann(or chaotah-ness).
I think the main reasons why i played so much these few days is to reward my brain and make it as happy as possible before it faces the full-blown impact of getting back prelim papers this whole week. i really truly seriously dread what is to come.
writing at 8:26 PM
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Anyways, watched Ghost with Shanny yesterday, and it was torturous.I have decided i cannot watch horror movies with Shanny. She's even more timid than my li'l brother!Plus the fact that i was super scared too, i had to squeeze my eyes and ears shut the whole time, and Shanny was clinging on to me and squirmin around, trying to peep and trying to cover her eyes at the same time. I have concluded that horror shows are very tedious to watch.
Actually Ghost is one of the few horror shows with a logical plot. And i caught enough snippets of scenes here and there (i was trying to peep from behind my bag) to put together what was going on.This is my summary of it: Girl dies. Ghost wants revenge. Strange things happen. Ppl scream and die. Ghost disappears.Well if you've watched enough movies, horror films usually follow this plot (save Scary Movie 1 and 2), and sometimes i wonder why i still pay $8.50 for these cheap thrills.I guess its one of the mysteries of human nature. The more i'm scared, the more i wanna watch it (abit similar to cai laoshi's "the more you know the more you donno" logic).
writing at 10:25 PM
Friday, September 17, 2004
7:45 - i was doing last minute readings and refreshing on the process of digestion.
7:55 - i decided the more i know, the more i donno. (cai laoshi's logic)8:00 - being a little restless, i cleaned the whiteboard and wrote "Biology P1, 8.15-9.15am"
8:03 - i returned to my seat started to prepare my table for the exam
8:04 - i reached into my bag, and realised i FORGOT to bring my pencil case!
8:05 - i spent an entire minute clearing my bag but i still couldn't find it.
8:06 - panick. the only thing that came to mind was: Dear God, help me.
8:06 - i went around the class askin if my friends had extra pens or pencils or erasers or rulers but i realised its a futile attempt. then my michk reminded me i had juniors. i was like, OH YAH!
8:08 - so i ran to the sec 3 classrooms a level right below, and thankfully 3 of my juniors were in the same class, so i just borrowed 2 pencil cases, and ran back to class.
8:10 - i quickly rummaged thru for what i need, and miraculously they had the brand of pen i usually use.
8:15 - exam starts.
You know when i ran down and saw my juniors sitting together in their class i couldn't have been more relieved. I really have to thank God for helping me get all the neccessary stationery in such a short time, and i had different types of pens to choose from too.I thank God that michk reminded me i had juniors, that the sec 3 classes were only a level down, and that 3 of my juniors were in the same class.
One thing i learnt: never underestimate the power of prayers.
writing at 11:23 PM
Sunday, September 05, 2004
But it was an exciting film lah, save the fact that i was perpetually half blind most of the time and squinting because i was so near the screen (2nd row?!) with all the flashing. All because Simon said: "I like sitting at the front rows." (i was like ?!?!) Actually t'was because the front rows were the only seats left. Ended up with neck cramps after the movie though.
But overall i think i needed that movie break.
writing at 8:19 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
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today was A-Math P1 and Social Studies. After a-math i can literally feel my brain being squeezed dry. A-math can be very mentally-draining at times. Overall i actually felt goooood after the paper! (like how you feel when you've done a good project presentation) There was only 1 relative velocity question i totally donno how to do(my relative velocity cannot make it), but i did draw manage to draw the diagram, which's a very big feat already.
And after SS paper i actually felt gooood too, which is very seldom, or not at all. i felt proud of myself that i actually remembered explicit consideration, and to rank the factors accordingly. and i do love Venice! s'why i chose it for structured.
but you know, most of the time i feel good after doing the exam paper, but when i get back the results... its another thing completely. bahhhh.
writing at 9:59 PM
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