Friday, October 21, 2005

Just a friend.

There was this sharp pain below my ribs today when I was playing volleyball, and even as I walked home it throbs, but with lesser intensity. Can't be menstrual cramps 'cause obviously its in the wrong anatomy. Can't be gastric because I ate breakfast. What if its cancer?! Or organ infection?! So you see how precious life is. Friends reading this, please treat me better. You never know when's your last chance you know.. hehh.

Anyways, in my opinion, if ever there was a darkest girl ever contest, maybe I'll win that prize. My mom scolded me for getting so dark. But I can't help it you know if its my genes. In the first place I wasn't even born fair lah. I guess God decided to give me a darker than usual birthday suit. And it don't really help that my skin is like some super sponge for maximum sunlight absorption. I even get a tannline just going for a normal jog. (And is it true that guys like girls with big eyes and fair skin?!?! Rahhh this is demoralising.)

Some conclusions after some self-reflection on my way home today... Sometimes thinking too much is no good. There's this tendency to think that something exists when in actual fact there is nothing. You sit around anticipating something to happen, hoping something would happen, but ehhhh? actually, you realised maybe in the first place, you imagined it to be there, not that it was really there... False impression perhaps?

Was that for me?

writing at 10:05 PM

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