Thursday, June 09, 2005

Recently my days have been revolving around volleyball competition and more competition. Counting tomorrow, it'd be my fifth consecutive day playing volleyball competitively, and you don't know how tiring it can get. The toll on the physical body and mental perseverance is overwhelming, but I must say it's a good test of endurance.

I haven't felt this relaxed playing volleyball for a longgggg time already. Being just a player on court, not carrying the back-breaking weight of the team on your shoulders, actually gives me the freedom to play better. And what I have learnt from the coach far surpasses what meagreness I gained (or, what volume I lost) thus far. It just further distinguishes shallowness from depth, inadequacy from competence, deficiency from complement.

I never felt such a burning desire to reach for that shiny piece of achievement, almost hungering after it as adrenaline courses through my veins everytime I think about it.

Tomorrow holds the ticket for playing in the finals. And I want to get it, and more importantly, to earn it.

I wish that niggling thought about the upcoming block tests will just go away.

writing at 10:05 PM

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