Friday, May 13, 2005

It hadn't been a good week.

So many choices, so little time. And I didn't know it would be so hard, to stand by the road I've chosen. But God didn't say it would be easy.

This, coupled with brain-juice-sapping Math Lecture Test which accounts for 10% of the overall grade (which might just determine whether I get retained or not [!!]), SPA, Project Work and various minute but irritating things known as tutorials, made it an awful week to get through.

I feel my energy depleting at a rate which outpaces my ability to replenish it. It's not just physical tiredness of sleep defiency, but mental fatigue as well of exceeding your mind's capacity to accept and process the week's happenings. I feel like stoning and walking around without acknowledging people because that too requires effort, but it's hard not to return a smile when you get one, no matter how lousy you feel, and its impossible not to laugh for even a day, 'cause there's always something to smile about.

I immerse myself in the company of friends, for what reasons I cannot fully determine... To avert periods of solitude? I don't know, but I find that sometimes, (hmm okay that's an understatement. probably most of the time) when I'm by myself my mind tends to wander, especially growing tendrils around things I should not be thinking about anymore, making it stubbornly lodged in that intangible space.

One road. One choice. One outcome.

writing at 9:36 PM

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