Saturday, March 19, 2005

I went to the beach today with my beach khakis. And once again it was a fun day. (Beach vball is never un-fun.)

And I met new people, new friends.

And being at the beach really took my mind off things that I'd otherwise be killing my brain cells with worry about. So I'm thankful for this day, even though it means chucking my tutorials aside and risking being in my teachers' bad books.

I like the feeling of being free (who doesn't?), of the endless outdoor space I can run and play in. Sometimes in an enclosed space where its so dense you can't even hear your own echo, I will feel as though invisible forces are pressing against me in all directions, compressing my lungs so I have difficulty breathing, pressing me into nothingness.

Sometimes only. Maybe the breathing part is just a psychological problem, not a real physical one, 'cause otherwise I wldn't be sitting normally typing here now.

Guess what.

I suspect I am semi-claustrophobic.

But anyways, suspicions about my medical sanity aside, I am feeling better now, after much advice from friends. Thanks to all. :)

And tomorrow will be a great day.

I hope.

writing at 9:17 PM

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