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Thursday, December 16, 2004

I feel terrible.

I woke up this morning without an appetite (which means something is very wrong because I always enjoy breakfast). My hands and feet were cold even though I had on a woollen pullover. And for the whole of today, my stomach felt as though it was contracting all the time, kinda like spasms and cramps. Everything I eat tastes like plain white porridge, and after I eat I feel nauseous (like all the food is stuck at the back of my throat). I feel dizzy and tired and weak when I walk, and my lips were dry all the time.

I am a little worried because I feel a sickness coming. And I have a flight tomorrow at 8am to catch to Thailand. Which means I have to be there at the airport at 6am. Which is insane. (considering the distance from West Coast to Changi)

But I know I won't fall gravely ill because God will give me strength and He will sustain me.

He gives strength to the weary

and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the Lord

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:29-31

Such a wonderful promise.

So the JC postings will be out tomorrow. And I don't think I'll get to know it since my flight is at 8am, and it's coming out at a later time. Surprisingly I'm not too anxious about it, because I know God has my future in His hands, and whichever JC I'm posted to, its exactly where God wants me to be. (:

writing at 11:55 PM