Thursday, September 30, 2004

So this whole week I got back most of my major papers already. Well I can't say I did very badly, but neither can I say I'm contend with the results. Like what the teachers always like to say: There's room for improvement.

Some subjects I expected better, some subjects I expected worse. Well I guess that's why people always say, you win some, you lose some. My humanities have never been good, fails (or otherwise borderline passes) most of the time. But this time I actually managed to hit >30 (upon 50)! I have to say its not my efforts alone, but God's credit, that I'm able to achieve this feat. But HCL was a disappoinment, 'cause it was one of my stronger subjects and I expected an A, but got a B instead..

But above all, I believe I got what I deserved to get, because I know God is a just and fair God, and He gives me what I deserve. He knows how much i studied (or didn't study), and I just wanna thank Him for all He has given me - the good and the bad.

Then inevitably with results means the choosing of JC. Right now I'm like facing this cross road, and I don't know which path to take. Both seems equally appealing, and both roads are treadable (i think). And each heads in a completely opposite direction to the other, which means i may end up a different Chun Li if i choose A over B, and vice versa. So, to put things short, I'm stuck.

Y'know sometimes I feel uncertain about what tomorrow holds, but knowing that God has my future in His hands, all my worries disappear. Wherever God chooses to lead me, I'll follow. So I guess whichever JC I may end up in, its where I'm meant to be.

In a way I don't have to worry so much because God will choose what is best for me. So worries aside, I thank God once again for everythin, and especially for sustaining me through the prelims (or I'd have just burned out midway).

writing at 8:28 PM

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