Sunday, July 25, 2004

Today was Youth Sunday, a special sunday where youths take over the adults in church to lead in songs and to do all the opening prayers and introduce the speaker for the day and stuff like that. I was one of the 2 leading. Everything was good - the music was good, the songs were good, the youth group special item was good, the speaker was good - all in all everything was very good, all except for me. And my sore throat. :( And here i wanna say something to my dear co-leader: I'm so sorry i couldn't make the worship leading a better one for us both.

I donno what caused the sore throat, but it was really bad becus i couldn't sing properly, let alone talk proper without going out of tune even in speech. The previous night i really prayed very hard for it to go away, but this morning i woke up with a real painful throat. Throughout the whole service i was practically out of tune the whole time.

After the 1st service i felt so disappointed and dejected and useless and all the lousy feelings mixed together. I mean, this was a really special day, and i had to mess it all up. :( and i think i know the reason why it happened.. the past few days i was busy preparing for today's worship with my co-leader, worrying over what to wear, how to sing the songs, what type of music the band shld play, what to say during the song intervals, i worried about anything and everything, and i forgot the most important thing: to just simply trust in God that He'll make everythin go well.

Well today was a lesson i think i'd never forget. It goes to show that no matter how prepared you are for something, be it a worship leading session or a mission trip or a special event, nothing is better than trusting and believing in God to make it successful. That was an important thing i overlooked. He has reminded me that it is not by my works alone that i can succeed, but that everything is under His control, and He has power over all things. Even if you're well prepared for something, anythin and everythin can crop up (like my sore throat), so its always best to commit everythin to God and give Him all control.

Yes Lord I hear You.

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someone i have to really thank today is my co-leader. he had to bear with my sore throat, and he didn't even complain. i know it must be really stressful for him as it is for me as it's both our first time leading, but he handled everythin real well, both as a worship leader and a partner. late last night after going through the worship order, he told me to drink more honeywater, but i just briefly "orh-ed" and didn't think much of it. this morning when i came to church, he gave me a bottle of home-made honeywater and told me it's really good for sore throats and to drink it. it was really touching becus i didn't think he'd do sth so sweet. the honeywater was real effective cus my throat didn't hurt that much after. before the service started he offered to pray for me too, sth which only 1 other person has done for me. i'm not used to being shown so much concern, so naturally i felt very touched. and during the first service after the worship songs while the pastor was speaking, he told me he'd go out and get a drink, but he came back with a packet drink for me. i really wanna thank God for such an understanding friend, for just giving me support throughout the whole thing. I dont think you'd ever be reading this, but if u do, just wanna say a bigggggg thank you.

writing at 9:39 PM

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