Wednesday, May 19, 2004

i just got news that my great-grandmother passed away, and i don't know what to feel about it. i was not close to her, only saw her during Chinese New Year when she came back for visits from the home. I think she's close to a 100 years old, and she has been bed-ridden for as along as i rmb.

From what my mother told me she had a bad slip in the toilet one day a long time ago, fractured her hip bone, but she refused to be operated on. She lost her ability to walk, and i think she was almost 80 years old then. She required help even for basic actions and needed a person to be there all the time to assist her, but no one in my maternal side of the family had the time to take care of her, forthwith she was sent to an old folk's home.

Although my family only sees her once a year, it always brings tears to my mother's eyes to see her grandmother on the bed. These few years she could not even recognise us anymore. I really don't know what to feel abt this, death cld be a source of freedom for her, but before that she didn't have the chance to know God...

writing at 5:49 PM

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